muah

I blog too much. I guess it's because I consider this my journal since no one reads it. I like that. I'm in bed, and Eden isnt home yet because she is out with her dixie boyfriend. With Eden being gone, I get a lot of thinking time in. This is going to be really cheesy, so if you arent into oober goober stuff just stop now. Anyways, one night I was really confused and scared about my future and where I should go to college soI prayed my heart out, my spirituality wasnt at its strongest point but I woke up with and answer. I had no doubt that I needed to come to St.George. I didnt know why, I was scared out of my mind to leave my comfort zone behind. But here I am going to school in St.George, and everyday it becomes more and more apparent as to why i'm supposed to be here. I'm figuring out who I am without the distractions I would have living at home. Dont get me wrong, i'm no where close to knowing exactly what it is that I want or who I am, but i'm getting closer. I miss my family  & i'm so grateful for their examples and all that they have done for me. I'm ready to move on from the past and bury a new seed that will grow into something I will actually be proud of. I have some serious soul searching to do, but I know this is only the beginning to something that will be beautiful if I allow it to be. I told you this was going to be cheesy, so if you look at me differently its your fault. Goodnight :)